This time is different.

^ Quote from my therapist

I was telling her how anxious I was about filing this police report and nervous and scared of it being the same as the last time I was so hurt and traumatized by the system. And she said, “this time is different, it’s not the same experience.” And that comforts me so much.

She told me that I’m already being met with compassion. This time is different. She said the outcome might be the same, where they don’t press charges, and I had even told the police officer that I would completely understand if they came to that conclusion, but this isn’t the same experience I had last year. She said that time of my life is done and over, I already had that experience. She said that every time I feel myself getting anxious about this, point out the differences. And it’s true. It comforts me.

This time is different. Whether the outcome is different or the same, this time is different. And I thank God for that.