Author Archives: Sarah's Story

Court tomorrow.

There’s more that I can and will say and I’ll update in a little bit but court tomorrow. Fingers crossed it goes well for us. Ok update – court is today, in a few hours, and I’m finally getting around to updating this post. Court is today. We’re suing my abuser for $475,000-$600,000. That’s basedContinue reading “Court tomorrow.”

Signs

I’ve been seeing a lot more 617, pretty much every day. I ended a phone call this morning and it lasted 6 minutes and 17 seconds. The apartment right across from mine is 1617. I’ll frequently see the clock at 6:17. So many signs. And today, I’m getting my nails done. School starts on TuesdayContinue reading “Signs”

Shock, Reality, Truth

I had a phone consultation with a potential new therapist today. My old therapist and I had practiced what to say on these consultations, since disclosing my truth can be very triggering. When I had left the message for her a couple weeks ago, I told her that her profile interests me because she advocatesContinue reading “Shock, Reality, Truth”

617

617. That’s my lucky number. 6/17, my birthday. For years my lucky number has been 6 and 17. But that’s always been it, 617, my number. A few months ago, I started seeing 617 everywhere. Like, everywhere. Every day I would see the time on the clock 6:17 in the morning and the evening. I’dContinue reading “617”

Grief, Guilt, and Moving On (literally)

I’m moving. In less than two weeks, I’m packing everything up and starting a new chapter in a whole new state. This has been exciting and something I’m looking forward to, but recently I’ve been feeling a lot of grief and guilt come up. Grief and guilt about Kirby and Daisy. Our life together wasContinue reading “Grief, Guilt, and Moving On (literally)”

Daisy’s sister has officially outlived her.

Rosie is 13 months old. Daisy was 13 months old, plus some days. Rosie has outlived Daisy. That absolutely… that… I hate that. It puts it into perspective how young Daisy was. Her life, just, so short… it’s not fair. He’s evil. He is EVIL. A monster. I hate this so much. Daisy, baby, comeContinue reading “Daisy’s sister has officially outlived her.”

I’m doing okay, really (well, for the most part)

I’ve been feeling I don’t know, guilty? lately for posting about all this deep inner stuff. I get the feeling that people read it and think I’m in such a dark place, and I guess the reality is that this is just my reality now. This is my every day life. I have trauma andContinue reading “I’m doing okay, really (well, for the most part)”

I had an order of protection against my abuser and I contacted him

1 year ago today, on July 4. Days after escaping him. I contacted him. Let me tell you why. First of all, he had been violating the order of protection. He was served and told the sheriff, “oh yeah I’m done with that, I’ll never see her again.” And the next morning he texted meContinue reading “I had an order of protection against my abuser and I contacted him”

GSD/My sister/Triggers

My sister and her boyfriend got a German Shepherd a couple months ago. And she and I haven’t been the same since. German Shepherds have been a huge trigger for me. Obviously. A huge part of the abuse was the German Shepherd. He had it attack me, I watched helplessly as it attacked my dogs,Continue reading “GSD/My sister/Triggers”