My sister and her boyfriend got a German Shepherd a couple months ago. And she and I haven’t been the same since. German Shepherds have been a huge trigger for me. Obviously. A huge part of the abuse was the German Shepherd. He had it attack me, I watched helplessly as it attacked my dogs,Continue reading “GSD/My sister/Triggers”
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Today is my abuser’s birthday.
Fuck that guy. He kills dogs.
I gained 20 lbs, but at least I don’t want to die anymore
Yeah. Putting it out there, my biggest insecurity and a huge internal battle. I started meds, antidepressants specifically, and I gained 20 lbs. But hey, at least I don’t want to die anymore. I first went on antidepressants, Zoloft specifically, in 2012 when I had depression and anxiety for the first time. College was rough.Continue reading “I gained 20 lbs, but at least I don’t want to die anymore”
1 Year Ago Today, I Escaped
At 5:00 o’clock in the afternoon on Thursday, June 25, 2020, I escaped from my abuser. He had no idea. I had been planning it since he viciously abused and killed my dog Kirby two days prior. I knew this was my out and I had to survive, and so I did. I escaped. AndContinue reading “1 Year Ago Today, I Escaped”
3am | June 24
It’s 3:46 in the morning on June 24 as I’m writing this. I think my body woke me up at this time as a trauma response. This time last year, at 3 in the morning, I was carrying the burden of a grave secret. Mat and I were the only ones who knew the truth,Continue reading “3am | June 24”
Letter to the State’s Attorney Who Failed Me
Sent. This is the letter I just sent the supervisor of the state’s attorneys who spent 45 minutes telling me how it could easily have been me that abused and killed my dog Kirby that day. It is empowering to write this letter and send it. I wish you peace, Kathy Morrissey. Letter to aContinue reading “Letter to the State’s Attorney Who Failed Me”
Court Today | Update
I had court today. My abuser was there. I had court today. I had been meeting with my attorney and planning today down to a T. Today was going to be the prove-up, which means I would state my case and the judge would likely rule in our favor. We were not planning on myContinue reading “Court Today | Update”
My birthday.
One year ago on my birthday, June 17, I knew I was going to die. I don’t know how to convey the absolute and paralyzing knowing that you are going to be killed, but that’s what I experienced on my last birthday. My abuser got to my apartment at 3:45am that day, using his copyContinue reading “My birthday.”
Juneteenth
Yesterday was June 19, or Juneteenth. Juneteenth is a (now federal!) holiday to commemorate the emancipation of African American slaves in the U.S. It’s important to honor the experience of African Americans in since it is so profoundly white-washed and forgotten or ignored. Yesterday, I celebrated Juneteenth. I wore a new t-shirt I recently got.Continue reading “Juneteenth”
A place for my thoughts.
Welcome to my blog, a more formal word for my online diary. Healing is a journey and I’m starting this blog as a place to put all my thoughts together in one place. Read along and laugh with me, cry with me, be angry with me…come along for the rollercoaster that is the experience ofContinue reading “A place for my thoughts.”
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