Looking at my abuser + PTSD

I saw my abuser in person in court. Obviously. And I’m reflecting on that. That man, that human being, wants nothing to do with me now, except maybe to harm me and get me off his back as I’ve shouted his ugly truth to the world. And for a time in our lives, that humanContinue reading “Looking at my abuser + PTSD”

The Case’s Grand Finale + Reflection

Yesterday, my abuser and the man who killed both of my dogs, Mathew Berry, pleaded guilty to the animal cruelty crime he committed against Kirby on June 23, 2020. I delivered an impact statement, and I’m sure I’ll share that in written form here soon but for now, know that it served its purpose andContinue reading “The Case’s Grand Finale + Reflection”

my abuser used to threaten me for being a teacher & now I get thanked profusely for it

My abuser used to threaten to kill me and my family for being a Spanish teacher. He said I was “part of the problem with this country” and was “just as bad as *them*.” One time, my abuser and I were on a walk around where I lived at the time, which coincidentally was inContinue reading “my abuser used to threaten me for being a teacher & now I get thanked profusely for it”

Victim Impact Statement

“Damn.” – my husband’s reaction when I read it to him (shortly followed by “that was amazing and incredibly powerful”) In all seriousness, man it is no easy feat to write a VIS! But it’s very rewarding once you do 🤍 To be read at a future, unknown date, in the future (Yeah Court wasContinue reading “Victim Impact Statement”

It’s 3am and I’m reflecting on my story (my abuser is pleading guilty to animal cruelty this week)

It’s 3am and I can’t sleep, but that’s typical these days. And when it’s 3am and I can’t sleep, my mind wanders. And it usually wanders to my story. To Court. To what lies ahead this week. And today, now, this 3am brings me back to my story. Particularly Daisy. And I’m beginning to cry,Continue reading “It’s 3am and I’m reflecting on my story (my abuser is pleading guilty to animal cruelty this week)”

Romans 12:12 “be patient in suffering”

At church this past Sunday, our pastor read scripture from Romans 12:9-12 and this scripture stood out to me and I think it’s especially important today. Today, there is a dark cloud cast over those of us who love and are hopeful. We feel despair and devastation. Those of us who have experienced harm areContinue reading “Romans 12:12 “be patient in suffering””