Sarah's Story

the dark cloud is finally lifting…finally ((life update))

Boy has life been a lot. And finally, finally it’s getting better. You know about the hardships of the past few months: Connor’s job loss, my traumatic miscarriage, moving and leaving my beloved school community and home in Denver, buying a house, moving, packing up an apartment almost entirely by myself while my husband closedContinue reading “the dark cloud is finally lifting…finally ((life update))”

Just Because Flowers

Four years ago, I was fearing for my life as I went through abuse. Today, I’m getting “just because” flowers from my husband. I’m grateful and blessed.

Update, hello

Okay I figured I should update bc last post was very “ahh I’m having a life crisis” which was true, but I’m feeling a lot better. Honestly getting into my classroom and starting to set things up has been a huge motivator for me. So, life changes are HARD, especially when it’s everything all atContinue reading “Update, hello”

My mental health rn? ummm (oh and Trial was postponed)

My mental health? Not great, I’ll be honest. My life has been nonstop stress and go-go-go for months now. Here’s a quick rundown of what my life has been like these past few months: April 11 – Husband finds out he’s losing his job by June 30. He’s the bread winner, this is a bigContinue reading “My mental health rn? ummm (oh and Trial was postponed)”

June 23 & I bought my flight

It’s June 23. Four years since Kirby. And I just bought my flight back home. For trial. Here we go

I made an appointment with my therapist

after having not gone for a couple of months (hey, your girl here is pretty healed!). But, life has become so much and I’ve been trying to cope on my own, but realized it would be nice to lean on professional support during this time. My husband found out he was losing his job (myContinue reading “I made an appointment with my therapist”

I had a miscarriage and it sent me to the ER (twice)

Today is Mother’s Day. And today is 4 weeks, a month, since I had my miscarriage. My very traumatic miscarriage. So, let’s talk about it. Finishing the experience from Part 1, here we go. I left off my last post talking about that Monday being relatively normal with more slight spotting after learning of myContinue reading “I had a miscarriage and it sent me to the ER (twice)”

4 years since Daisy was killed.

And I decided to celebrate her life and joy to honor her beautiful existence, rather than suffer the pain and horror my abuser intended to inflict when he killed her.

I had a miscarriage.

And this is hard. I’m so sad. First it’s the sad of the shock and the loss. The reality that my baby had stopped growing. The reality that this was happening, that this was in fact a miscarriage. And now it’s the realities of all the things I’m going to be experiencing that I wasContinue reading “I had a miscarriage.”

Okay, so maybe not.

My last post about giving up this world of sharing my story and everything….mmmmm maybe not. Because immediately after I shared that post, I received (yet another) message from a woman who had been involved with my abuser. And it reminds me of why I share and do this. Also, trial is in 2 monthsContinue reading “Okay, so maybe not.”