Sarah's Story

2 years ago today I matched with Mathew Berry on Bumble.

The day that changed my life forever.

Quiet Moments

These days I mourn having quiet moments to myself. Because in these moments, when the world is quiet and I’m left to my mind, my thoughts drift to the loss. Daisy’s birthday is on Sunday and I so mourn. Every quiet moment my mind goes to this fact, drifting to the profound loss and griefContinue reading “Quiet Moments”

New Job + More Therapy

Let’s start with the good: I got a new job!!!! I’ve had 3-4 high schools interested in me and this week I was a finalist at two of the high schools. One of them offered me the position and before I accepted, I asked if I could go on a tour of the building. TheyContinue reading “New Job + More Therapy”

Sunshine + Grief ☀️

I went on a walk this morning with my dog Rosie (I’m taking Rosie and Joey out separately to train them) and on this walk, in the gorgeous sunshine, I saw Kirby and Daisy with me. Kirby, exactly like this in the picture (my favorite picture of him), and Daisy running up ahead of us,Continue reading “Sunshine + Grief ☀️”

It’s not over yet

Jeremiah 29:11 was the scripture verse on my devotional card this morning. “For I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord, plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.” Plans not to harm you. My God blesses me. My God is good toContinue reading “It’s not over yet”

I’m tutoring a professional athlete

And I think that’s really cool. Like a legit pro athlete, making the big $$$, on TV, that kind of pro athlete. At our first session, his agent was there the whole time. Like how wild is that?? I’m tutoring him and his wife in English and I love it. They’re such a lovely coupleContinue reading “I’m tutoring a professional athlete”

Hate + Mental Health

I swear I always get the most hate on Tik Tok when my mental health isn’t as strong as it can be, or maybe it’s just that I feel it the most during these times. Anyway, I’m filtering my comments again because I don’t need to be reading people’s insecurities and internalized misogyny when theyContinue reading “Hate + Mental Health”

Columbine

I’m applying for jobs because I need to gtfo of my current school (don’t worry, we’ll go into that). I had an interview on Thursday and spoiler alert: I didn’t get the job, but tbh that’s fine. I applied Wednesday morning (the last day before the application closed), they called me that afternoon and askedContinue reading “Columbine”

I’m going to be in the news again

The reporter (very kind) is doing my story and told me he contacted the Will County State’s Attorney office to ask about my case, and they told him they were reviewing my case. If that’s true, great, if not, I know political talk. But, I’ve decided (as I shared) that I’m not going to pursueContinue reading “I’m going to be in the news again”

A year ago I wanted to die. And tonight I danced.

Tonight I got up and danced. Well first I worked out and then I jammed to my music and just danced. And it felt good. A year ago I wanted to die. Literally. I remember sitting in my car, sobbing, because I didn’t want to be alive. I wanted to die. I wanted to beContinue reading “A year ago I wanted to die. And tonight I danced.”