I’ve held onto the supplies from the day Mathew Berry tortured and killed my dog Kirby for almost five years now. And now, today, just now, I said goodbye to them and threw them away. I said goodbye to the choke collar he used to torture Kirby. The one where that morning, he saw itContinue reading “The supplies from the day he killed Kirby.”
Category Archives: Healing | My journey of growth & healing
4 years since Daisy was killed.
And I decided to celebrate her life and joy to honor her beautiful existence, rather than suffer the pain and horror my abuser intended to inflict when he killed her.
The worst trauma is fear
I woke up this morning feeling very reflective. It started right when I woke up. Most people wake up in the morning and check their phones or get up and brush their teeth or whatever to start their day. Maybe before any of that they just lay there and stretch that big comfy stretch whenContinue reading “The worst trauma is fear”
Sometimes I think about the horror
TW: animal abuse Sometimes I think about the horror of what he did. Listen, I’ve gone through a LOT of therapy. I’m in a good place. And, the fact stands that I experienced true horror and that is part of my story. Of our story. So sometimes I think about the horror. The cruelty. SometimesContinue reading “Sometimes I think about the horror”
Anger + Moving on (Daisy’s birthday)
Yesterday was Daisy’s birthday. I woke up and immediately felt angry. Anger at the fact that she’s gone, that she got one birthday, that she was only a baby when he killed her. Anger that the system failed her and no criminal charges were or ever will be brought against her. Angry at the factContinue reading “Anger + Moving on (Daisy’s birthday)”
Inner Child
Healing the inner child is TOUGH. WORK. Like right now it’s probably the thing that gets triggered the most. As my therapist said, my adult self is doing great & healing fabulously. My inner child? She’s got some work to do. But hey, she’s had a whole lifetime of dealing with these traumas and unlearningContinue reading “Inner Child”
Trauma + Grief + “this is my story”
My sister sent me a memory on Snapchat the other day. 3 clips. Each one was her playing and cuddling with Kirby. And it absolutely shattered my heart. My sister there with Kirby, love as pure as light. 5 years ago. And all I could think about was how Mathew Berry so cruelly, so horrifically,Continue reading “Trauma + Grief + “this is my story””
Dating Again (the update I forgot to update)
I figured I’d write a new blog post since I forgot to edit the original post last week. I’m dating again, and yeah, he and I are officially official (like committed, in-a-relationship, dating). He’s an amazing, amazing person. This is legitimately the first healthy relationship I’ve been in, which is awesome, but also brings outContinue reading “Dating Again (the update I forgot to update)”
Two years without Daisy May
I was driving home from work on Monday and I started thinking about the day Daisy died and I couldn’t get this fact, this realization, out of my mind. The day Mathew Berry killed Daisy, I had been teaching a class via Zoom in the dining room of my apartment. He had taken Kirby andContinue reading “Two years without Daisy May”
Dating Again
I’m dating again for the first time in two years and it’s… surprisingly it’s going well (not to jinx it). I’ve been terrified to date after everything with Mat so I’m very very pleasantly surprised that things are going well. I met a guy and we’ve been dating-ish for almost 2 months now, so IContinue reading “Dating Again”
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