And I haven’t had one of those in a while. I was triggered and I felt my body go into the freeze mode it always did when I was terrified for my life around Mat. My boyfriend is so great but his driving gives me severe anxiety and ultimately it led to a panic attackContinue reading “I had a panic attack last night {triggered}”
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Year 28
My birthday is next week, and as I turn 29, I’m reflecting on what Year 28 has been. Let’s take a look at all that Year 28 has been. Starting with: Year 28 – The year I moved out of state to a place I had never been where I knew nobody. Several people haveContinue reading “Year 28”
Guns in America (Written by an American Teacher)
I took a half day on Tuesday. I was sick with a bad cold and took the afternoon as a sick day so I could rest before hosting the graduation ceremony of my 6th grade students. I took a nap and when I woke up and checked my phone, I saw all these posts onContinue reading “Guns in America (Written by an American Teacher)”
Dating Again, Healing, and yeah this is good
I’m saving this post to explain more later buuuuuut let’s talk about dating after abuse & therapy. Things are going well and I’m so grateful for the opportunity and space to heal.
Winding Down + New Beginnings
2.5. That’s how many days I have left with my students. 2.5. It’s been a hell of a year and here we are. Finally. 2.5 days left. I was feeling something tonight so I made a lil video lip syncing to one of my favorite Spanish songs (yeah yeah I’m posting it for you toContinue reading “Winding Down + New Beginnings”
Turning the page
I’m turning a new page, starting a new chapter, and it feels so good. Last week, my abuser’s biological sister reached out to me and disclosed some hard information. I had really mixed feelings about it and was blessed to have therapy the next day. I told my therapist that it made me feel gross,Continue reading “Turning the page”
2 years ago today I matched with Mathew Berry on Bumble.
The day that changed my life forever.
Quiet Moments
These days I mourn having quiet moments to myself. Because in these moments, when the world is quiet and I’m left to my mind, my thoughts drift to the loss. Daisy’s birthday is on Sunday and I so mourn. Every quiet moment my mind goes to this fact, drifting to the profound loss and griefContinue reading “Quiet Moments”
New Job + More Therapy
Let’s start with the good: I got a new job!!!! I’ve had 3-4 high schools interested in me and this week I was a finalist at two of the high schools. One of them offered me the position and before I accepted, I asked if I could go on a tour of the building. TheyContinue reading “New Job + More Therapy”
Sunshine + Grief ☀️
I went on a walk this morning with my dog Rosie (I’m taking Rosie and Joey out separately to train them) and on this walk, in the gorgeous sunshine, I saw Kirby and Daisy with me. Kirby, exactly like this in the picture (my favorite picture of him), and Daisy running up ahead of us,Continue reading “Sunshine + Grief ☀️”
