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I removed the post: my statement to police of the day MB killed Kirby

That day was by far the worst day of my life. A year and a half ago, on the 1 year anniversary of that day, I made a blog post sharing the statement I provided police of everything that happened that day. It’s gruesome. And yesterday, I removed it. From time to time, I getContinue reading “I removed the post: my statement to police of the day MB killed Kirby”

Life Update, Life Happenings

Life is good. My life is really good. I’ve had some really good things going on, so let’s talk about it. First of all, I’m teaching AP Spanish this year. Which is a huge step for my career. It’s an incredible accomplishment and honestly, I’m having a blast. I love teaching AP Spanish. My studentsContinue reading “Life Update, Life Happenings”

I filed a police report last week

I’m 100% sure my abuser is violating my order of protection…again. Let’s rewind: You know I’m active on social media – Tik Tok, especially. It’s been amazing to share my story and help so many while educating about domestic abuse and animal abuse. I’ve also been in the news plenty of times. My abuser, whoContinue reading “I filed a police report last week”

Victim Blamers Need Murder to Understand Abuse

I said it. Victim blamers need the victim to be murdered to understand the power of abuse. Until then, they hold the victim as responsible for being abused instead of the abuser for abusing. So here’s my reflection: I have received more support than ever, especially lately, especially now that Mathew Berry has been chargedContinue reading “Victim Blamers Need Murder to Understand Abuse”

I had a panic attack last night {triggered}

And I haven’t had one of those in a while. I was triggered and I felt my body go into the freeze mode it always did when I was terrified for my life around Mat. My boyfriend is so great but his driving gives me severe anxiety and ultimately it led to a panic attackContinue reading “I had a panic attack last night {triggered}”

Trauma + Grief + “this is my story”

My sister sent me a memory on Snapchat the other day. 3 clips. Each one was her playing and cuddling with Kirby. And it absolutely shattered my heart. My sister there with Kirby, love as pure as light. 5 years ago. And all I could think about was how Mathew Berry so cruelly, so horrifically,Continue reading “Trauma + Grief + “this is my story””

“I hope you can move on”

That’s something I’ve heard on more than one occasion from people close to me, namely family members. It came from a place of love but this idea, that statement, is very harmful. For the REST of my LIFE, I will carry this trauma with me. Until the day I die. It will forever and alwaysContinue reading ““I hope you can move on””

I’m angry. Angrier than I thought. Fuck the system.

I’m so angry. I’m so hurt. Fuck the system. Fuck Kim Foxx. Fuck the prosecutors who victim blamed. Fuck them. I’m angry. And hurt. And I need to talk about it. Or write about it for now (I have therapy tomorrow night). I’m so angry and hurt I feel myself coming to tears. On Tuesday,Continue reading “I’m angry. Angrier than I thought. Fuck the system.”

I am the sun ☀️

In therapy this week, I reprocessed some of my trauma and how I was triggered into feeling paralyzing fear when my dog Rosie jumped on my lap as I drove the other day. It brought me right back to the day Mat killed Kirby, because that morning, as I drove to Mat’s house, Kirby jumpedContinue reading “I am the sun ☀️”