When the victim blaming comments don’t impact me

I was checking my filtered comments on Tik Tok this morning and saw somebody commented that I “ate Mexican food while he killed Kirby” and therefore get no sympathy from this person because I put my boyfriend before my dog. And to that, I say: yes, I ate Mexican food that day. I’m incredibly proudContinue reading “When the victim blaming comments don’t impact me”

Rosie went to the vet & I still grieve Daisy HARD.

Rosie wasn’t feeling well this week. I emailed the vet on Tuesday night and asked if I could bring her in this weekend. They wrote back on Wednesday morning saying they’d prefer to see her as soon as possible with her symptoms and they had an opening for that afternoon. I took it and toldContinue reading “Rosie went to the vet & I still grieve Daisy HARD.”

Haters are weak-minded people

And they’re on the same level as my abuser. Let me explain. I posted a video on Tik Tok yesterday since I have court today. The video is a montage of pictures and videos of Kirby and Daisy. I made it as a reminder and expression of what I lost. It’s meaningful to me. Anyway,Continue reading “Haters are weak-minded people”

I’m doing okay, really (well, for the most part)

I’ve been feeling I don’t know, guilty? lately for posting about all this deep inner stuff. I get the feeling that people read it and think I’m in such a dark place, and I guess the reality is that this is just my reality now. This is my every day life. I have trauma andContinue reading “I’m doing okay, really (well, for the most part)”

I had an order of protection against my abuser and I contacted him

1 year ago today, on July 4. Days after escaping him. I contacted him. Let me tell you why. First of all, he had been violating the order of protection. He was served and told the sheriff, “oh yeah I’m done with that, I’ll never see her again.” And the next morning he texted meContinue reading “I had an order of protection against my abuser and I contacted him”