anxiety – Sarah's Story

I had a panic attack last night {triggered}

And I haven’t had one of those in a while. I was triggered and I felt my body go into the freeze mode it always did when I was terrified for my life around Mat. My boyfriend is so great but his driving gives me severe anxiety and ultimately it led to a panic attackContinue reading “I had a panic attack last night {triggered}”

Hate + Mental Health

I swear I always get the most hate on Tik Tok when my mental health isn’t as strong as it can be, or maybe it’s just that I feel it the most during these times. Anyway, I’m filtering my comments again because I don’t need to be reading people’s insecurities and internalized misogyny when theyContinue reading “Hate + Mental Health”

A year ago I wanted to die. And tonight I danced.

Tonight I got up and danced. Well first I worked out and then I jammed to my music and just danced. And it felt good. A year ago I wanted to die. Literally. I remember sitting in my car, sobbing, because I didn’t want to be alive. I wanted to die. I wanted to beContinue reading “A year ago I wanted to die. And tonight I danced.”

Rosie went to the vet & I still grieve Daisy HARD.

Rosie wasn’t feeling well this week. I emailed the vet on Tuesday night and asked if I could bring her in this weekend. They wrote back on Wednesday morning saying they’d prefer to see her as soon as possible with her symptoms and they had an opening for that afternoon. I took it and toldContinue reading “Rosie went to the vet & I still grieve Daisy HARD.”

I’m not doing ok, but I’m fine

It’s situational. And it’s trauma, and I accept that and I’m in therapy to cope with it, so I’m ok. I accept the hurt and pain and grief (that’s the hardest one) and allow myself to feel it when the feeling comes up. And as for situational, I hate my job, I’m suffering there, andContinue reading “I’m not doing ok, but I’m fine”

I almost cried at the vet last night

I took Rosie to a new vet last night because she was due for her annual check-up. I researched a ton of vets and this one had like 1,000+ five-star reviews, so I scheduled her appointment and was fine waiting six weeks to be seen due to the wait. The vet is incredible. The clinicContinue reading “I almost cried at the vet last night”

I gained 20 lbs, but at least I don’t want to die anymore

Yeah. Putting it out there, my biggest insecurity and a huge internal battle. I started meds, antidepressants specifically, and I gained 20 lbs. But hey, at least I don’t want to die anymore. I first went on antidepressants, Zoloft specifically, in 2012 when I had depression and anxiety for the first time. College was rough.Continue reading “I gained 20 lbs, but at least I don’t want to die anymore”