Tag Archives: grief

One of my students died.

Over spring break, one of my students passed away. It was unexpected and while they aren’t sharing what happened, I hope this student is at peace. I’m processing and still in shock. My heart is shattered for the student’s family. Specifically their mom right now. This morning, we had an ultrasound and I found outContinue reading “One of my students died.”

One year ago we found out I was pregnant with the baby we lost

Thursday, March 14, 2024 As my current pregnancy with our rainbow baby comes to its close in a few short months, I’m feeling a lot for the one we lost. It’s bittersweet, because the reality is and forever will be that this beautiful girl I carry inside me now would not exist without the lossContinue reading “One year ago we found out I was pregnant with the baby we lost”

The supplies from the day he killed Kirby.

I’ve held onto the supplies from the day Mathew Berry tortured and killed my dog Kirby for almost five years now. And now, today, just now, I said goodbye to them and threw them away. I said goodbye to the choke collar he used to torture Kirby. The one where that morning, he saw itContinue reading “The supplies from the day he killed Kirby.”

It’s 3am and I’m reflecting on my story (my abuser is pleading guilty to animal cruelty this week)

It’s 3am and I can’t sleep, but that’s typical these days. And when it’s 3am and I can’t sleep, my mind wanders. And it usually wanders to my story. To Court. To what lies ahead this week. And today, now, this 3am brings me back to my story. Particularly Daisy. And I’m beginning to cry,Continue reading “It’s 3am and I’m reflecting on my story (my abuser is pleading guilty to animal cruelty this week)”

Romans 12:12 “be patient in suffering”

At church this past Sunday, our pastor read scripture from Romans 12:9-12 and this scripture stood out to me and I think it’s especially important today. Today, there is a dark cloud cast over those of us who love and are hopeful. We feel despair and devastation. Those of us who have experienced harm areContinue reading “Romans 12:12 “be patient in suffering””

I had a miscarriage.

And this is hard. I’m so sad. First it’s the sad of the shock and the loss. The reality that my baby had stopped growing. The reality that this was happening, that this was in fact a miscarriage. And now it’s the realities of all the things I’m going to be experiencing that I wasContinue reading “I had a miscarriage.”

Okay, so maybe not.

My last post about giving up this world of sharing my story and everything….mmmmm maybe not. Because immediately after I shared that post, I received (yet another) message from a woman who had been involved with my abuser. And it reminds me of why I share and do this. Also, trial is in 2 monthsContinue reading “Okay, so maybe not.”