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Trauma + Grief + “this is my story”

My sister sent me a memory on Snapchat the other day. 3 clips. Each one was her playing and cuddling with Kirby. And it absolutely shattered my heart. My sister there with Kirby, love as pure as light. 5 years ago. And all I could think about was how Mathew Berry so cruelly, so horrifically,Continue reading “Trauma + Grief + “this is my story””

Sunshine + Grief ☀️

I went on a walk this morning with my dog Rosie (I’m taking Rosie and Joey out separately to train them) and on this walk, in the gorgeous sunshine, I saw Kirby and Daisy with me. Kirby, exactly like this in the picture (my favorite picture of him), and Daisy running up ahead of us,Continue reading “Sunshine + Grief ☀️”

A year ago I wanted to die. And tonight I danced.

Tonight I got up and danced. Well first I worked out and then I jammed to my music and just danced. And it felt good. A year ago I wanted to die. Literally. I remember sitting in my car, sobbing, because I didn’t want to be alive. I wanted to die. I wanted to beContinue reading “A year ago I wanted to die. And tonight I danced.”

Rosie went to the vet & I still grieve Daisy HARD.

Rosie wasn’t feeling well this week. I emailed the vet on Tuesday night and asked if I could bring her in this weekend. They wrote back on Wednesday morning saying they’d prefer to see her as soon as possible with her symptoms and they had an opening for that afternoon. I took it and toldContinue reading “Rosie went to the vet & I still grieve Daisy HARD.”

I almost cried at the vet last night

I took Rosie to a new vet last night because she was due for her annual check-up. I researched a ton of vets and this one had like 1,000+ five-star reviews, so I scheduled her appointment and was fine waiting six weeks to be seen due to the wait. The vet is incredible. The clinicContinue reading “I almost cried at the vet last night”

I gained 20 lbs, but at least I don’t want to die anymore

Yeah. Putting it out there, my biggest insecurity and a huge internal battle. I started meds, antidepressants specifically, and I gained 20 lbs. But hey, at least I don’t want to die anymore. I first went on antidepressants, Zoloft specifically, in 2012 when I had depression and anxiety for the first time. College was rough.Continue reading “I gained 20 lbs, but at least I don’t want to die anymore”