Tag Archives: mental health

Haters are weak-minded people

And they’re on the same level as my abuser. Let me explain. I posted a video on Tik Tok yesterday since I have court today. The video is a montage of pictures and videos of Kirby and Daisy. I made it as a reminder and expression of what I lost. It’s meaningful to me. Anyway,Continue reading “Haters are weak-minded people”

Signs

I’ve been seeing a lot more 617, pretty much every day. I ended a phone call this morning and it lasted 6 minutes and 17 seconds. The apartment right across from mine is 1617. I’ll frequently see the clock at 6:17. So many signs. And today, I’m getting my nails done. School starts on TuesdayContinue reading “Signs”

Shock, Reality, Truth

I had a phone consultation with a potential new therapist today. My old therapist and I had practiced what to say on these consultations, since disclosing my truth can be very triggering. When I had left the message for her a couple weeks ago, I told her that her profile interests me because she advocatesContinue reading “Shock, Reality, Truth”

Grief, Guilt, and Moving On (literally)

I’m moving. In less than two weeks, I’m packing everything up and starting a new chapter in a whole new state. This has been exciting and something I’m looking forward to, but recently I’ve been feeling a lot of grief and guilt come up. Grief and guilt about Kirby and Daisy. Our life together wasContinue reading “Grief, Guilt, and Moving On (literally)”

I’m doing okay, really (well, for the most part)

I’ve been feeling I don’t know, guilty? lately for posting about all this deep inner stuff. I get the feeling that people read it and think I’m in such a dark place, and I guess the reality is that this is just my reality now. This is my every day life. I have trauma andContinue reading “I’m doing okay, really (well, for the most part)”

I gained 20 lbs, but at least I don’t want to die anymore

Yeah. Putting it out there, my biggest insecurity and a huge internal battle. I started meds, antidepressants specifically, and I gained 20 lbs. But hey, at least I don’t want to die anymore. I first went on antidepressants, Zoloft specifically, in 2012 when I had depression and anxiety for the first time. College was rough.Continue reading “I gained 20 lbs, but at least I don’t want to die anymore”