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Guns in America (Written by an American Teacher)

I took a half day on Tuesday. I was sick with a bad cold and took the afternoon as a sick day so I could rest before hosting the graduation ceremony of my 6th grade students. I took a nap and when I woke up and checked my phone, I saw all these posts onContinue reading “Guns in America (Written by an American Teacher)”

New Job + More Therapy

Let’s start with the good: I got a new job!!!! I’ve had 3-4 high schools interested in me and this week I was a finalist at two of the high schools. One of them offered me the position and before I accepted, I asked if I could go on a tour of the building. TheyContinue reading “New Job + More Therapy”

“I hope you can move on”

That’s something I’ve heard on more than one occasion from people close to me, namely family members. It came from a place of love but this idea, that statement, is very harmful. For the REST of my LIFE, I will carry this trauma with me. Until the day I die. It will forever and alwaysContinue reading ““I hope you can move on””

This time is different.

^ Quote from my therapist I was telling her how anxious I was about filing this police report and nervous and scared of it being the same as the last time I was so hurt and traumatized by the system. And she said, “this time is different, it’s not the same experience.” And that comfortsContinue reading “This time is different.”

One last fight.

I don’t want any judgement or negativity because this is my life, my dogs were killed and died in my arms, this is my fight. I filed a police report in Mokena yesterday. Yeah, I flew into Chicago for the day, drove down to Mokena, filed a police report, and flew home. It was aContinue reading “One last fight.”

I emailed the police & prosecutor…again

I’m like 75% not expecting a reply and 98% expecting them to essentially tell me to f*#% off but I mean it when I say that I’m going to fight until the end. So here’s why I emailed them. In the past few weeks, I’ve had three women reach out to me as having dated/beenContinue reading “I emailed the police & prosecutor…again”

I’m saving lives.

I’m crying and I’ll add more to this post soon but I’m saving lives and I can’t tell you what that means to me. With everything, the injustice system not pressing charges against Mat, the bullshit we’re dealing with in court with this lawsuit, none of that matters because I’m saving lives. I’m telling myContinue reading “I’m saving lives.”

I’m angry. Angrier than I thought. Fuck the system.

I’m so angry. I’m so hurt. Fuck the system. Fuck Kim Foxx. Fuck the prosecutors who victim blamed. Fuck them. I’m angry. And hurt. And I need to talk about it. Or write about it for now (I have therapy tomorrow night). I’m so angry and hurt I feel myself coming to tears. On Tuesday,Continue reading “I’m angry. Angrier than I thought. Fuck the system.”

I am the sun ☀️

In therapy this week, I reprocessed some of my trauma and how I was triggered into feeling paralyzing fear when my dog Rosie jumped on my lap as I drove the other day. It brought me right back to the day Mat killed Kirby, because that morning, as I drove to Mat’s house, Kirby jumpedContinue reading “I am the sun ☀️”