Thursday, March 14, 2024 As my current pregnancy with our rainbow baby comes to its close in a few short months, I’m feeling a lot for the one we lost. It’s bittersweet, because the reality is and forever will be that this beautiful girl I carry inside me now would not exist without the lossContinue reading “One year ago we found out I was pregnant with the baby we lost”
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The supplies from the day he killed Kirby.
I’ve held onto the supplies from the day Mathew Berry tortured and killed my dog Kirby for almost five years now. And now, today, just now, I said goodbye to them and threw them away. I said goodbye to the choke collar he used to torture Kirby. The one where that morning, he saw itContinue reading “The supplies from the day he killed Kirby.”
Looking at my abuser + PTSD
I saw my abuser in person in court. Obviously. And I’m reflecting on that. That man, that human being, wants nothing to do with me now, except maybe to harm me and get me off his back as I’ve shouted his ugly truth to the world. And for a time in our lives, that humanContinue reading “Looking at my abuser + PTSD”
The Case’s Grand Finale + Reflection
Yesterday, my abuser and the man who killed both of my dogs, Mathew Berry, pleaded guilty to the animal cruelty crime he committed against Kirby on June 23, 2020. I delivered an impact statement, and I’m sure I’ll share that in written form here soon but for now, know that it served its purpose andContinue reading “The Case’s Grand Finale + Reflection”
It was 4 years ago that I found out for certain what he did to Daisy.
And tomorrow, I get to look him in the eye and tell him I know.
It’s 3am and I’m reflecting on my story (my abuser is pleading guilty to animal cruelty this week)
It’s 3am and I can’t sleep, but that’s typical these days. And when it’s 3am and I can’t sleep, my mind wanders. And it usually wanders to my story. To Court. To what lies ahead this week. And today, now, this 3am brings me back to my story. Particularly Daisy. And I’m beginning to cry,Continue reading “It’s 3am and I’m reflecting on my story (my abuser is pleading guilty to animal cruelty this week)”
I made an appointment with my therapist
after having not gone for a couple of months (hey, your girl here is pretty healed!). But, life has become so much and I’ve been trying to cope on my own, but realized it would be nice to lean on professional support during this time. My husband found out he was losing his job (myContinue reading “I made an appointment with my therapist”
I had a miscarriage and it sent me to the ER (twice)
Today is Mother’s Day. And today is 4 weeks, a month, since I had my miscarriage. My very traumatic miscarriage. So, let’s talk about it. Finishing the experience from Part 1, here we go. I left off my last post talking about that Monday being relatively normal with more slight spotting after learning of myContinue reading “I had a miscarriage and it sent me to the ER (twice)”
The worst trauma is fear
I woke up this morning feeling very reflective. It started right when I woke up. Most people wake up in the morning and check their phones or get up and brush their teeth or whatever to start their day. Maybe before any of that they just lay there and stretch that big comfy stretch whenContinue reading “The worst trauma is fear”
What the future holds
Sometimes I feel like I’m so ready to be done with teaching. And other times I feel like, how could I ever give this up? And that’s just the reality of it. I love being a teacher. And I’m good at it. Like really good at it. Like, hypothetically, if my school were to beContinue reading “What the future holds”
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