Sarah's Story

MATHEW BERRY HAS BEEN CRIMINALLY CHARGED FOR TORTURING AND KILLING MY DOG KIRBY ON JUNE 23, 2020

Book

I wrote a little bit for my book tonight. I was on a walk and just decided that I was going to go home and write. It is HARD to revisit the past, all the horror and trauma, and live in those memories. To write about them in detail, to relive each and every terrifyingContinue reading “Book”

I had a panic attack last night {triggered}

And I haven’t had one of those in a while. I was triggered and I felt my body go into the freeze mode it always did when I was terrified for my life around Mat. My boyfriend is so great but his driving gives me severe anxiety and ultimately it led to a panic attackContinue reading “I had a panic attack last night {triggered}”

Inner Child

Healing the inner child is TOUGH. WORK. Like right now it’s probably the thing that gets triggered the most. As my therapist said, my adult self is doing great & healing fabulously. My inner child? She’s got some work to do. But hey, she’s had a whole lifetime of dealing with these traumas and unlearningContinue reading “Inner Child”

Trauma + Grief + “this is my story”

My sister sent me a memory on Snapchat the other day. 3 clips. Each one was her playing and cuddling with Kirby. And it absolutely shattered my heart. My sister there with Kirby, love as pure as light. 5 years ago. And all I could think about was how Mathew Berry so cruelly, so horrifically,Continue reading “Trauma + Grief + “this is my story””

Year 28

My birthday is next week, and as I turn 29, I’m reflecting on what Year 28 has been. Let’s take a look at all that Year 28 has been. Starting with: Year 28 – The year I moved out of state to a place I had never been where I knew nobody. Several people haveContinue reading “Year 28”

Dating Again (the update I forgot to update)

I figured I’d write a new blog post since I forgot to edit the original post last week. I’m dating again, and yeah, he and I are officially official (like committed, in-a-relationship, dating). He’s an amazing, amazing person. This is legitimately the first healthy relationship I’ve been in, which is awesome, but also brings outContinue reading “Dating Again (the update I forgot to update)”

Guns in America (Written by an American Teacher)

I took a half day on Tuesday. I was sick with a bad cold and took the afternoon as a sick day so I could rest before hosting the graduation ceremony of my 6th grade students. I took a nap and when I woke up and checked my phone, I saw all these posts onContinue reading “Guns in America (Written by an American Teacher)”

Dating Again, Healing, and yeah this is good

I’m saving this post to explain more later buuuuuut let’s talk about dating after abuse & therapy. Things are going well and I’m so grateful for the opportunity and space to heal.

Winding Down + New Beginnings

2.5. That’s how many days I have left with my students. 2.5. It’s been a hell of a year and here we are. Finally. 2.5 days left. I was feeling something tonight so I made a lil video lip syncing to one of my favorite Spanish songs (yeah yeah I’m posting it for you toContinue reading “Winding Down + New Beginnings”