My abuser is banned from talking to the Judge in our court case šŸ˜³

Yep, as of today. Like there’s an official court order prohibiting Mat from communicating with our judge. On February 2, Mat emailed the Judge in our case. He said this: ā€œSo Sarah Manos has given out my person information to the point I had to change my number and did over 3,000 in damages toContinue reading “My abuser is banned from talking to the Judge in our court case šŸ˜³”

I’m in the news TWICE today!

CBS Chicago Report: https://chicago.cbslocal.com/2022/02/04/man-order-to-pay-160k-killing-two-dogs/?utm_campaign=trueAnthem+Manual&utm_medium=social&utm_source=facebook&fbclid=IwAR3FLb8VgnrqKntvmqSm-Th2lIWDaSULafWEgKW7sl0FyGxY7AuyVXV4gp8 Chicago Sun Times Article: https://chicago.suntimes.com/platform/amp/2022/2/4/22916719/bumble-dating-app-dog-torture-sarah-manos-mathew-berry-illinois-human-care-animals-act-animal-rights?fbclid=IwAR2AxOc0o1yS4wVvnBeRqeZ4pvS1jk7d-lwb2M8Qaj6C8zWTlyi3F7gLyPU

ā€œI hope you can move onā€

That’s something I’ve heard on more than one occasion from people close to me, namely family members. It came from a place of love but this idea, that statement, is very harmful. For the REST of my LIFE, I will carry this trauma with me. Until the day I die. It will forever and alwaysContinue reading “ā€œI hope you can move onā€”

This time is different.

^ Quote from my therapist I was telling her how anxious I was about filing this police report and nervous and scared of it being the same as the last time I was so hurt and traumatized by the system. And she said, ā€œthis time is different, it’s not the same experience.ā€ And that comfortsContinue reading “This time is different.”

One last fight.

I don’t want any judgement or negativity because this is my life, my dogs were killed and died in my arms, this is my fight. I filed a police report in Mokena yesterday. Yeah, I flew into Chicago for the day, drove down to Mokena, filed a police report, and flew home. It was aContinue reading “One last fight.”

I emailed the police & prosecutor…again

I’m like 75% not expecting a reply and 98% expecting them to essentially tell me to f*#% off but I mean it when I say that I’m going to fight until the end. So here’s why I emailed them. In the past few weeks, I’ve had three women reach out to me as having dated/beenContinue reading “I emailed the police & prosecutor…again”

I’m saving lives.

I’m crying and I’ll add more to this post soon but I’m saving lives and I can’t tell you what that means to me. With everything, the injustice system not pressing charges against Mat, the bullshit we’re dealing with in court with this lawsuit, none of that matters because I’m saving lives. I’m telling myContinue reading “I’m saving lives.”

I’m not doing ok, but I’m fine

It’s situational. And it’s trauma, and I accept that and I’m in therapy to cope with it, so I’m ok. I accept the hurt and pain and grief (that’s the hardest one) and allow myself to feel it when the feeling comes up. And as for situational, I hate my job, I’m suffering there, andContinue reading “I’m not doing ok, but I’m fine”